Greetings and Merry Meet!
So, it has been about three weeks since I moved into my new place. Because I didn’t have plans for the long weekend, I spent a lot of time alone. During times of loneliness, it is important to notice one’s coping mechanisms – things we do to beat down the uncomfortable feelings we don’t want to have. As for me, I ate too much! But I refused to beat myself up over it – it was a holiday, after all! It’s just something for me to notice.
In the past, to smother feelings of loneliness, I would reflexively go out and try to meet people. This often led to me meeting men who were unworthy of my time. Since I am determined not to use that particular coping mechanism again, I must be willing to sit with the uncomfortable feelings. I must lean into the pain and embarrassment of loneliness and just feel what it feels like. This is the only way to truly surrender to it and receive its gifts.
One of its immediate gifts is productivity. I got most of my first week’s homework done for my upcoming semester at grad school. I also got a chance to paint, which was thrilling. I’ve got a long way to go with the painting, but I’ve made a good start. I had a wonderful weekend! I spent quality time with myself doing things that I love.
Being a solitary witch sometimes literally means being alone. But with the Goddess as my constant companion, I am never really alone. Her beauty radiates through me in all that I do, allowing me to be a positive presence, whether I am in a crowd or on my own.
Peace and blessings for the upcoming week!
With Love and Light,